Post by Molly on Aug 22, 2022 9:51:37 GMT
I should start this by saying I no longer live in the same country as my dad. I moved out when I was 17.
My parents divorced when I was 3. I don’t remember it or remember anything around that time, really. I’ve always been a bit scared of my dad. I never liked sleeping in the same bed as him or showering with him.
When my body started developing, he would always call me “sexy”. He would come in the bathroom while I showered or come in my room naked after he showered.
I’ve always known him to be a womaniser. I remember him bringing multiple women home and having many girlfriends at the same time. I once was using his phone and saw messages between him and a sex worker.
There was one time that he was walking around the house naked and he was talking to me in the kitchen. He started getting an erection. I fell sick to my stomach and I couldn’t even move. I was so scared. This happened 6 years ago and it makes me sick when I think about it.
It’s happened a lot of times when he goes to show me something on his phone and there’s just pornography on there. I’m so scared when I’m alone with him. Whenever I go and visit, I never sleep because I’m so scared of what he’ll do if I’m asleep.
I’ve had many nightmares where he rapes me in my childhood bedroom or tries to touch me sexually. It’s always the same thing. It’s made me have a very weird perception of sex. If there is anything, even the smallest thing that reminds me of him, I feel sick. If there is a smell, or a sound, or anything - I feel ill.
My parents divorced when I was 3. I don’t remember it or remember anything around that time, really. I’ve always been a bit scared of my dad. I never liked sleeping in the same bed as him or showering with him.
When my body started developing, he would always call me “sexy”. He would come in the bathroom while I showered or come in my room naked after he showered.
I’ve always known him to be a womaniser. I remember him bringing multiple women home and having many girlfriends at the same time. I once was using his phone and saw messages between him and a sex worker.
There was one time that he was walking around the house naked and he was talking to me in the kitchen. He started getting an erection. I fell sick to my stomach and I couldn’t even move. I was so scared. This happened 6 years ago and it makes me sick when I think about it.
It’s happened a lot of times when he goes to show me something on his phone and there’s just pornography on there. I’m so scared when I’m alone with him. Whenever I go and visit, I never sleep because I’m so scared of what he’ll do if I’m asleep.
I’ve had many nightmares where he rapes me in my childhood bedroom or tries to touch me sexually. It’s always the same thing. It’s made me have a very weird perception of sex. If there is anything, even the smallest thing that reminds me of him, I feel sick. If there is a smell, or a sound, or anything - I feel ill.