Post by Bluestar on Nov 24, 2022 21:28:08 GMT
I'm 50 and pregnant through IVF with partner of many years. He initially changed his mind and the abuse escalated in a way that was shocking-nothing physical but awful rage, shouting, name calling, swearing, and then....silence for weeks, repeat.
He softened slightly at the scan but has then reverted back to bullying and mind games. No one understands. He seems so charming to the outside world. I've begged him to go to the GP and he finally has a script for antidepressants, for the rage and moodiness, but hasn't taken them so far. I'm too far gone to wait any longer, to say, see if the tablets help the situation.
This is my last chance for a child/family, but it will absolutely mean co parenting with controlling and narcissistic abuse for the rest of my life. I went into this with a partner and would never have attempted this on my own.
Also worried about managing physically, emotionally and financially on my own. I have been unwell in the pregnancy and have risk factors.
So confused, so distressed. I want him out of my life but at what cost?
He softened slightly at the scan but has then reverted back to bullying and mind games. No one understands. He seems so charming to the outside world. I've begged him to go to the GP and he finally has a script for antidepressants, for the rage and moodiness, but hasn't taken them so far. I'm too far gone to wait any longer, to say, see if the tablets help the situation.
This is my last chance for a child/family, but it will absolutely mean co parenting with controlling and narcissistic abuse for the rest of my life. I went into this with a partner and would never have attempted this on my own.
Also worried about managing physically, emotionally and financially on my own. I have been unwell in the pregnancy and have risk factors.
So confused, so distressed. I want him out of my life but at what cost?